So I had an idea when i saw this train case sitting at the thrift store. I love it when your ideas come to live before your very eyes. Everything came into place, the brown chalkboard paint, the cupcake fabric that was on sale, The brilliant idea of painting the tray aqua because it would go better with the base color of the tray!! (Nate's idea not mine, we make a good team) So yesterday You got to see the before shots and some of the process shots... well hold on to your hats ladies and gents. I think i am done, well maybe some minor tinkering (including pink pom pom trim on the outside if i can find some and another coat of paint, we'll see how this holds up.)
So this morning we were looking at a few apartments downtown. So after we got stood up by two places. We went to ONE thrift store. I let nate choose but i was just in too bad off a mood to be drug threw every single thrift store in downtown V-town. (V-town is a thrfting maven's dream come true) SO I found this
I read a lot of blogs. It's the first thing i do when I get up in the morning. Why my percolator is perking my coffee... I read threw my google reader. It seems to be a trend that lots of people are in the process of moving. I myself will be moving soon, where is yet to be determined. Today was the 4th almost full day of apartment hunting that nathan and I have done. And it SUCKS. The two of us aren't too keen on LA. I mean there are things that I love about LA. But housing/apartments isn't one of them. Nathan has hated every apartment we've looked at except for this one rent to own that the owners never called us back on. The Layouts of most apartments is horrfic. We have some ideas about what we would like. We would like a 2 bedroom. Since Nate's little brother will be living with us when he isn't at boarding school. Really the only sticking point i have is that it NEEDS to have a gas stove. Three of the apartments we looked at to day did not (this was not there only flaw, but in my mind there biggest flaw) Pricing isn't even our biggest issue. I just want this to be over, I have started packing and Nate is living out of boxes in his house. I just want our live together to begin and the moving to be done with.
Crafting runs in my family.. BIG time. My brother is a painter, My Father is a jeweler, and my mother is a Jack of all trades (save for knitting and crocheting). Beading these day takes up most of her creative outlets. I am in the process of setting up an etsy store for my Dad and another one for my Mom along with one for myself. I want to do all the graphics and everything SO this is quite the undertaking. Plus I have to teach my mother and Father how to photograph there pieces in a beautiful way... this could be hard task since my dad isn't that great with the video camera. He's been know to leave it on and take pictures of our feet, the bus floor. My mom sent me in the mail these three necklaces. They are her ideas for Spring and Summer and I think they are amazing. Infact I am gonna wear the one with the brown shell circles on my date to see Up with Nate later tonight. (hehe he is on his way!!!)
Here is a rundown of my day.
I rarely talk about work on here. Because i can't TALK about it. I can give generalzations of what went on. But as far as getting into the ins and outs of a project. I am not allowed to do that. But let's do a little run threw of what i CAN talk about... I am sitting in the Vancouver 4 seasons. well lounging in bed. I am talking on phone with nathan. He's on break.. he's a million miles from me... (ok not a million, but we are in two different countries for the first time in our relationship) for the first time in almost a week, that why this bed seems so big.. and sleep is not availing herself to me. I had a most excellent flight/first day of work/afternoon with my co-workers. I hit my marks. Only blew my lines twice..and did 3 really solid shots. I feel good about them... Granted it isn't any of the stuff i've been worried about... but I feel like i nailed her today.. After work a few co-workers hung out. We got out early so we did a movie double feature. The hangover then land of the lost the first was freaking funny... the second was good summer fun.. Poutine for dinner. Tomorrow is a hard physical day. Sunday morning is a hard mental day... Sunday is gonna be lingering around in my mind for a few weeks.... hits close too home... My first acting professor in college always said, that emotional blowback and how you handle it is what is hard about this job. You can teach a monkey to be charming and speak back lines. He like he is right, like he was about SO many things. Good Night lovelies.
Rachel over at bling on my sewing machine had a tagged post up. Her note at the bottom was if your into do it. I am much better with this kind of tagging. Sometime i like questionnaires and sometimes I hate them. But seeing as I am trying to be as quiet as possible while Nathan naps. (he's got food poisoning, BAD!) this would be good idea for me right now. google images
Is here! i love it! i am so happy that it is grey and cool... yesterday I just hung around my apartment with Nathan. happily reading and painting and embroidering and knitting. taking time to stop and smell the peonies...
There is a running joke between and Ex-boyfriend and myself, about my scrapbooking supplies. I took a HORRIFIC scrapbooking class in college and I have TONS and TONS of supples that just sit under my dining room table. I hated everything about scrapbooking... most of all all the precision cutting. Well, In the spirt of my lost summer... I am taking an art journaling class, given by the super talented miss Rachel of RVA The theme of her class is.. "i solemnly Swear...." it's an art journal about plans for the summer! SO I am gonna plan out this little lost summer i've got and keep track of it from monday- until I go back on set in september. Art journaling would be something cool to do for different projects I do... I could see it becoming a part of my process... I've collected little bits of paper and junk for as long as i can remember... now I can put it to good use!
Nathan has been Jacked up about Conan O'brien coming back for days... in fact I have been listening to a PLETHORA of Conan impersonations and bits. He does a modestly good conan impersonation. But what takes the cake was today in the middle of walmart, he uses a rake to recreate the Walker Texas Ranger Lever bit. IN THE MIDDLE OF A CROWDED GARDEN DEPT. Causing an old lady to literally shriek! I thought for sure we were getting kicked out of walmart. I wish i would have thought to snap a picture of him going down with my iphone. Instead I pretended not to know him walked a way quickly, choking back a peel of laughter. There are moments where he does things that he knows will make me giggle no matter how stupid he looks to other people. It's one of the things I find most endearing about him. Long before we were dating, he had a knack of picking me up and making me smile but the thing I love about him the most, is he has this internal sensor, that knows when i just need him to let me cry it out, or fret, or worry... that sometimes i am an overly sensitive silly girl, and just need to be that.
Nathan, spoils me. Really he does. He brings me coffee in bed. He drives to me every weekend. Last weekend he gave me a beautiful ring. He also ordered this present before he left. (from here) When I asked him about this a few minutes ago.. He shrugged and says i love you.. and i miss you during the week. and walks off towards the kitchen to make afternoon snacks and coffee... So here is what he ordered for me.. I Iove it. It combines two things that i love, Spoons and Typewriter keys.
So, Nathan left his pocketwatch here. And I left my mailbox key in his pocket of his suit. He remembers this oh... about 15 minutes ago.. SInce I have a surprise coming from etsy! SO. of cource i run to the mailbox in the middle of the night. My surprise from etsy is not here yet! (maybe tommorrow) but my RVA order came!!! OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG!!!!
I am currently putting pinning my hair up, its in this half up half down thing that looks sorta like a bow... Pictures at some point i'm sure! So We are going to meet up with "the Pack" Nate is a nervous wreck right now. Not only does he have a BIG HUGE AMAZING interview that would allow him to move to California Sooner tommorrow! It is also the first time he is meeting this group of my friends. He's not one to take the piss out of anyone but me. But this is the Pack's favorite pasttime... It should be good times!
I did it I made coffee with the stove top percolator. I have a fancy drip machine that i bought a few months back. It makes OK coffee. Good enough coffee when every coffee shop in town is closed (that around 10pm every day of the week here) or when I have people over in mass (it's a 12 cupper) It grinds and then brews so it fresh ground and ok, but the coffee I made this afternoon! is AMAZING! (not as good as nathan's but good)
Wow, I can't believe three days have clicked by so quickly. Right now I love Nate's work schedule. I know he hates it, because one of the managers is out on maternity leave so that leaves him working all of his 40 hrs in 4 days. (he is doing 34 hrs in 3 days this coming up week. so he can come be my assistant on set next weekend isn't he a sweetheart!!!) I know he is talking to a few of the franchises out here to see if he can transfer sooner then end of july. So cross your fingers!!!
Hey Everyone! So yesterday's post was long and drawn out and had NO pictures... thanks for Indulging me and your reward is a show and tell post! YAY!!!! (this may be a friday thing. I loved show and tell in school, and it was always on friday!)
Ever have a run of days where every little thing just sets you off emotional some how. For the most part these past few weeks I've been really good about not letting things get me too upset or down. But Wednesday morning I woke up at 3am from horrific nightmare. I sat up, and promptly began to bawl. Nathan, groggy and not used to crying crazy girls sleeping next to him, did the best he could, lemon water, stories, snuggles and singing to me when all else failed. He eventually fell back asleep, and I did a few hrs later. When he woke up. he told me stories about ancient greece and rome. Apparently ancient greeks believed that Aquamarine would absorb "young love" and hold on to it. It was also what Romans would give to their young wives as a gift the morning after they consummated their marriage. Before he left, he gave me a pretty ring. with aquamarine stone and a setting that looks like a birds nest! I love it. every time i look down at it makes me think of him. It makes me insanely happy.
Right now, I am in the process of trying to decide if I should sell my Bonnaroo ticket. I had planned on going alone, before i started dated Nathan. In fact i was in full on retreat mode from him when I bought the ticket. I was hoping that things wouldn't change with him when i got this ticket. That we would be BFF forever, and nothing more. I am glad i was wrong. On my drive to SLO last month, I had decided that I had lived without him once and I could do it again. I also wanted to try to go as slow as possible. I've learned we have been going slowest most painful way for the last 4 years. two steps forward, ten back in this brilliant little dance of fear/stupidity. Once we both got on the same page, there was no way to stop the inevitable fall that would happen at the speed of light. When I bought that ticket, I needed to be out of SoCal. I needed to be anywhere but in the middle of what I was feeling. But I am in a different place now. I still want to see the Yeah Yeah Yeahs, I still have a ticket, and a Plane ticket/rental car. He assures me that this anxiety he feels, isn't because we are dating now. He always assumed i was going to Bonnaroo with a group of people. He worries that I'll get sick, hurt, assaulted. And he isn't with in driving distance of TN. I am sure that none of those things will happen. I have a good head on my shoulders, I'm pretty smart about things. I wouldn't be drinking or doing drugs. So sickness/heat stroke would be the only thing I would really be worried about. As much as I love the Yeah Yeah Yeahs I am starting to think that seeing them, isn't worth his sanity...or the yelling matches we've had tonight. It's hard for me to not be a single/selfish critter. when pushed to think of things "as a couple". I always get squeamish. It's the last and final wall that surrounds the fortress of solitude. He's offered a few consolation prizes, that all include him. So that fact alone makes them more appealing then camping with hippies on a farm in 90% humidity. I am sure i could sell the ticket... but part of me says you bought it for a reason... go.. stick to your plan. So for now... Bonnaroo is up in the air...
Sooo after much debate and a slightly stupid row. Nate and I went to Pauette in BH today.
Hello, I hope everyone is having an amazing weekend. I'm having the most relaxing time here in v-town. Nathan and I have just been lazying about. Today we went to the park across from my apartment and found "our tree". The park was full of people so we didn't say long. Hopefully I can find my camera's battery charger this week so i can take pictures of our picnic next weekend. We also went to joann today so i could get more embroidery floss it was on sale and I had a coupon. So, I think i may use one of 40% off from Michaels to get a variegated set. embroidery has kind of taken over a bit. I don't know why but right now i find it very soothing. I did knit a few rows on mara at the park. I know that Nathan wants that shawl to be done. I don't know why he loves it so much but he loves to pet the Malabrigo. Here is another project that I have started. The girl is done, I need to finish the boy.
test... test... *backs up from the keyboard* Sweetie, your sure this thing works? it's on?? people can see this??? Ok... if your sure..... Hello... I'm not a blogger... I only use the internet for news, AIM, email. I am what you could say a man of few words.... to strangers anyway....I am sure your lovely hostess would say other wise.... I've talked her ear off from the moment she rode into my life clinging to a super skinny scenester boy on the back bright yellow vespa wearing a black and white polka dot dress, with hot pink and black hair and more eyeliner then Ziggy Stardust. She told me to think of this as me just talking to her. That's what I've done. So from that night till now here are the songs that make me think of her. I hope she explained the rules of our little mix tape game to you. She made a tape.. that i think you all saw. Then I made one using the same artist.. I can get rid of one artist and replace it with something else. She really made it easy on me by picking most of her favorite artists. To one up her just a bit I tried to pick songs I've connected to memories of her. Much to my embarrassment and Spencer Marie's pleasure will share them with you. Think of them as the liner notes. A glimpse into things she would never tell you, if she was the one who shared my mix with you. I am sure your asking yourself why I would do this. It's her eyes, ladies and gentlemen, the way they will without a doubt sparkle and shine. well that and the squeals of delight i know i'll be greeted with tomorrow when i get to her apartment.
Stupidly Happy- XTC
She's always made me feel easy.If you've ever had the pleasure of making her really laugh you know I mean. I am talking the kind of laughter that sends her into fits of giggles for minutes. This song makes me feel ALMOST as good.
Why'd you want to live here- Ben Gibbard
God knows I hate LA, but it's where she has to live. So why not make as much fun of it as I can.
Red Right Ankle- the Decemberists
Really I can't say it better then the lyrics of this song. " Oh adhere to me, for we bound by symmetry whatever differences our lives have been we together make a limb."
Oh she also has a gypsy uncle named Hector.... JUST KIDDING
Bread and Coffee- The Promise Ring
This song used to be on her darkroom mix. She listened to it a lot when she was held up in the darkroom of solitude. when she listens to songs a lot, she hums them... I remember she came to visit to do a shoot, she hummed this song almost the whole time she was here. Drove me nuts with it in fact. Also one of the only pictures of hers i have is her interpretation of lyrics to this song.
Jenny - The Mountain Goats
She rides in on a motorcycle.and they ride off into the sunset. and Spencer marie and I both are Pirates... so this song also is a good anthem for us.
Here We Are - Mercy Mercedes
It sounds like what she would listen to while singing into her hairbrush and putting her makeup on. dancing about her bathroom. It's what she does.
Jessie and my Whetstone- Saves The Day
Reminds me of our turbulent pass. Of how i wish that I could take back so many things I've said, she seen me do. I can't. So let's go play in puddles and start over.
Such Great Heights- Iron and wine
eyes. all about her eyes.
Just Watch The Fireworks - jimmy eat world
This was on the play list.. the first time her and I hung out alone.I remember her and I sing it at the top of our lungs while driving around. We ate falafel.
Everything I Asked For- The Maine
She turned me on to this band... while not my favorite, the are catchy and right up her alley... Plus, she does rock a pair of Prada sunglasses like no one else can. (hey Spencer Marie is it possible for you to put that cute picture of you in your sunglasses here)
She will be loved - Maroon 5
Really, I wanted to get rid of panic at the disco and so I had to pick a maroon 5 song. Sometimes she can one up me.. this is one of those times.
Brand New Colony- The Postal Service
I want to be everything but the platform shoes. I like that she has to get on her tiptoes a bit to kiss me when she wears flats.. it's adorable, and absolutely fractures me. Also she has dancers feet!
Fear you won't fall- Joshua Radin
I took the first step I wrote her and told her how much she meant to me. Scared to death the whole time that all she would see is the all the shitty things.
Tune out-The Format
She dances when she drives, I'm not kidding it's is frightening. We also go out driving. I love the 118 by her house it's green and full of lemon groves, farm stands, and great place to go driving and listen to good music.
Valentine- The Smoking Popes
"you're the sweetest of all sweethearts. Won't you give your heart to me. Can't you see I love you, Valentine."
Here There and Everywhere - The Beatles
It's the best love song Paul McCartney wrote. No I don't want to hear about Yesterday, or Michelle, Or Maybe I'm Amazed. Also I don't care that he wrote it for Jane Asher and not Linda. It's the best one period. It is also her favorite Beatles song. I feel that our respect for this piece of music may be the whole reason i love her. I mean have you ever tried to find a girl who KNOWS this song let alone adores it the way she does.
Antonia - Motion City Soundtrack
A song about a quirky girl. If Spencer Marie is anything she is quirky. She has big cat eye glasses. She is the domestic queen. She is a girlie girl in a pretty dress one day. The just one of the boys in Jeans, a t-shirt and
Chucks the next day.
Marry Me- A Nightmare Of You
"I felt a love of such Deafening Weight, dangling from a balustrade of shilly-shally. Overlooking infinity and this ecstasy of you lying next to me."
lullaby- The Spill Canvas
I feel like he stalked her and I. She blushes like crazy, she is a raging insomniac, I give anything to make sure she sleeps. I'll sing to her, rub her back, even read her books on existentialism to bore her to sleep if i have to.
Nathan drives a long time to come spend two days a week with me. It is very sweet of him, he knows I hate the drive and to fly so until the end of july he will be making weekly trips to visit me... also we are looking for an apartment in LA. So I thought that I would make mix of songs that make me think of him. Starting from when we were just friends all the way threw how the tiniest things makes me think of him now.
Drugs or me- Jimmy Eat World
Northern Downpour- Panic At The Disco
Today- Joshua Radin
I'd like that- XTC
Janet- The Format
Shiver me timbers- Mercy Mercedies
The Maine- Count em One Two Three
It had to be you- Motion City Soundtrack
Ode to Serotonin- A nightmare of you
Be Still My Heart- The Postal Service
If I Could Only Win Your Love - The Decemberists
Sunday Morning- Maroon 5
I know you love me- the smoking popes
They Don't Know- Ben Gibbard
Love and Some Verses- Iron and Wine
Old College Try- The Mountain Goats
Valiant- The Spill Canvas
So there it is that is my mixtape. Now the twist in this little mixtape story is he has to make me one using the same artist... and cannot repeat any of the songs... he can make one substitution. I can't wait to see how he sees these artist and how they relate to me.